“I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God…But as for me, my prayer is to you, O LORD. At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in your saving faithfulness…But I am afflicted and in pain; let your salvation, O God, set me on high! I will praise the name of God with a song; I will magnify him with thanksgiving…you who seek God, let your hearts revive. For the LORD hears the needy and does not despise his own people who are prisoners.” Psalm 69:3, 13, 29-30, 32-33
There is a remarkable effect when we choose to praise our God in the midst of our pain. When we are faced with the decision of losing ourselves in the hurt and confusion or looking to Him and singing of His great faithfulness, and we choose to fix our eyes on our Savior. The easier choice is to allow the difficulty to sweep over us, to crawl into a shell of protection and try to mend our wounds. But when we decide to trust our Lord even in this moment and decisively come before His throne in vulnerability and worship, we find that this is where His healing begins. It is when our hearts are opened to Him that He is able to begin His beautiful, miraculous work of restoration and the binding up of our brokenness.
Often this takes more strength than we think we can muster. Everything feels too overwhelming, and the idea of praising God in the midst of chaos that He could have prevented seems like too much to ask. But it only takes a small step. It only takes a glance, a moment of lifting your face to see His glory. He will meet you there. He will give you the strength you need. Pour out your heart to Him. He knows the despair you feel. He knows the questions and the doubts. And He wants you to bring those before Him so that He can begin to speak truth to your soul. He wants to show you who He is. He wants you to experience first-hand His faithfulness and extravagant grace. He wants you to know without question that He hears you, He loves you, and He will never leave you.
Even if all you can do is fall at His feet in weariness, that is enough. The Almighty God will carry you. He will be the lifter of your head. He will lighten your darkness. Even if your eyes are growing dim and your hope is fading, come to Jesus. Choose to praise Him in the pain and the chaos, believing that He will come through for you. He won’t let you down.