“I am not praying for the world but for those whom you have given me, for they are yours.”
“The Lord knows those who are his”
2 Timothy 2:19
If I am God’s, then will He not lead me rightly?
Will He miss a needed provision?
Will He speak in a way that is unclear, causing me to miss His guidance even as I seek it?
If I am His—if I belong to the One who rules over all, who sees and understands everything, and who loves me with an everlasting love—can I not trust Him fully?
There seems to be a fear in me. That I’ve missed a step somewhere. That the timing of my life is off. That I will miss out on God’s best by making the wrong choice.
Recently I’ve found myself paralyzed at a crossroads, uncertain of next steps and afraid to take a wrong one…and honestly feeling entirely at a loss, struggling to even recognize what the steps could be.
I don’t know what to do. So I look. And I wait. And I feel stuck. Not wanting to waste time or miss God’s purposes in the now, in the waiting, but overwhelmed in the face of the unknown.
What I’m realizing in this moment is that all of this uncertainty and fear has me looking down. My eyes are fixed on the ground.
I am the Lord’s. That means something. It changes everything. Because it means I am not bound by what I see or what seems possible. My God can do all things. He calls us to the “impossible” so we can experience His faithfulness and power as He equips, strengthens and provides. It also means I am guided by the One who knows me better than I know myself. He intricately wove me together and is familiar with all my ways. I know my Shepherd and He knows me, and the closer I am to Him the better I am able to recognize His voice—hearing Him above all the noise and opinions around me.
I am the Lord’s. He has written each of my days. He knows His plans, down to each detail. Each of those plans, the plans of His heart, He will accomplish in me, for me, and through me. So the timeline is not “off.” Timing may not always make sense to me, but it’s all part of His design.
My God is not small. He is not weak. He is not silent. He is not inactive. He is not uncertain. He is never wrong. He is sovereign. Almighty. His voice thunders through the heavens. He acts for us. Fights for us. He shuts doors no one can open and opens doors no one can shut (Revelation 3:7). My God accomplishes every purpose exactly as He means to. He knows His plans and He will see His purposes done.
So today, may my eyes be fixed not on the ground, the uncertainty. May they instead be lifted up, fixed on my God, as I call to mind all that He is. Declaring as King Jehoshaphat did in 2 Chronicles 20:12, “I do not know what to do, but my eyes are on You.” Trusting that as I look to Him, He will guide my feet with each step and will not let me fall.
“Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
“And I will lead the blind
in a way that they do not know,
in paths that they have not known
I will guide them.
I will turn the darkness before them into light,
the rough places into level ground.
These are the things I do,
and I do not forsake them.”