“Be not like a horse or a mule, without understanding,
which must be curbed with bit and bridle,
or it will not stay near you.
Many are the sorrows of the wicked,
but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the LORD.”
“But for me it is good to be near God;
I have made the Lord GOD my refuge,
that I may tell of all your works.”
It can be so tempting to fight God’s leadership when we don’t understand what He’s doing or why. Especially in those moments when we don’t want an explanation; we just want things to change – to go back to the way they used to be or go in a different direction. We want God to make a different choice and we reject the reality of what He has sovereignly chosen.
I know I’ve been there. Feeling helpless and at war and filled with stubbornness as I looked out on circumstances and timing that I couldn’t understand. You know what? I still don’t understand it. But my reaction in this moment is far different than it was just short of a year ago.
There isn’t a step-by-step process to get back to trusting what God is doing. It’s really, really hard sometimes. But the beautiful thing about our God is that He is ours. And we are His. So even in our stubbornness, He does not leave. He doesn’t get angry and fed-up and just write us off. No, He continues to draw us to Himself. If we will lay down our guard a bit, we will hear His sweet promises filter in. Promises of faithfulness, righteousness, justice, peace, hope, and steadfast love. And if we will let Him, God will heal the brokenness and turmoil within us.
“The LORD builds up Jerusalem; he gathers the outcasts of Israel. He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” (Psalm 147:2-3). See the love our God has for us. He does not simply bring trouble into our lives and leave us to pick up the pieces. There will be trouble here, pain and difficulty and loss, but we are not alone as we walk through it. It is in those seasons when we truly see who our God is – that He is our peace, our strength, our comfort, our refuge, our healer. He seeks us out when we are lost. He fights for us and He always comes through.
If you will make the Lord God your refuge, you will find that “it is good to be near God.” It is far better than to be anywhere else. God is where our heart can rest. He is where our soul finds peace. In His presence there is fullness of joy; at His right hand are pleasures forevermore (Psalm 16:11).
Heavenly Father, thank You for Your patience with us and for Your great love. In the moments when we draw away from You, continue to beckon us back into Your presence. Unfold Your Word, that we may see Your light. Remind us of Your goodness and grace. Holy Spirit, help our unbelief; cause truth to resound in our hearts and mend our brokenness. Lord, draw us back to Yourself. “For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere.”
“But let all who take refuge in you rejoice;
let them ever sing for joy,
and spread your protection over them,
that those who love your name may exult in you.
For you bless the righteous, O LORD;
you cover him with favor as with a shield.”